If there's anything I am grateful for other than your presence, it's the blessings you get from my family and friends. You've managed to acclimatized so well with those most important to me, and for that you deserve all the appreciation I can give.

What I’m most afraid of is that feeling..The feeling of being alone; of being lost. That feeling when you have absolutely no idea what’s going on inside of you. When you have no idea what’s coming next or where you’re going. When you feel lost while you’re just sitting in your room. When you’re just completely empty inside and you can actually feel it.

Two thousand sixteen.
Thank you to all the people that were or are in my life that spread nothing but your beautiful energy, you are appreciated.

It’s sad to think that you may never see or talk to someone again who you once considered to be one of the most important people in your life at a certain point in time. This is one of those concepts that I will never be able to understand.

High School was a tumultuous time for the majority of us, let's be real. Looking back, I don't know how I ever could have done it without my crazy, wonderful, and beautiful group of friends. When we graduated, we all got so wrapped up in starting our new beginnings we never properly ended our chapter. With that in mind, there are a few things I just want to say.

Thank you.

Thank you for all the laughs, the tears, and everything in between. Thank you for the hilarious lunch table conversations, inside jokes, and group messages. Thank you for the numerous concerts, football games, parties and dances we all went to together. Thank you for the support and advice you all gave me (you were right about most things). Thank you for the crazy nights that left us with stories we will never forget. Every single one of you made my high school experience memorable (and bearable), and for that, I am forever grateful. Essentially, thank you for being my best friends.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for every time I was too caught up with myself and my life to make time for you. I took you for granted, and we started to drift away. I'm sorry if I was ever petty, or talked behind your back. I'm sorry if I wasn't always the friend you needed me to be.

I'm so proud of you and will always support you.

Even if we don't talk anymore, I want the best for you. I am always rooting for you. We are all doing very different things with our lives, and it's so cool to see us on the way to accomplishing things we could only dream about in high school. It's amazing to see how far we've come. I'm so proud of the people you are becoming, even if I don't take the time to tell you.

I will never forget you.

Even if months and years pass us by, even if we never speak again, you have left your mark on the four most challenging years of my life as the girls I have loved the most. You have been my most trusted confidants, my go-to shoulders to cry on, my partners in crime, and my support group. No matter where this crazy life takes me, just know, I will never forget you, and you will always have a friend in me.

I saw a quote, saying “someday this pain will be useful.”. i thought of you, all of you. this will be the only time i’d thank you people, for stabbing me right in the face when i never turned my back on you. thank you for giving me unexpected pain during the times you’ve hurt me. that pain is now useful to me, for it taught me to handle things, to know when to tell people to fuck off, and to tell myself that i should trust nobody but myself and my other half. thanks, i’m really better now without any of you.

Cinta adalah satu kolektif memori, yang dikongsi bersama yang tersayang, tanpa prajudis atau dogma, cuma berkongsi sama rasa.

Have you ever woke up in the middle of the night and felt restless and strong pangs of anxiety so you start thinking of things you'd never think about in the day like where even is waldo or what would things be like if you have died. Would you miss out so much ? How long would people mourn for you? How long until they completely forget about you? Damn i hate this.

You were not, nor would you ever be, someone I would end up with. We had no type of relationship. You weren't my friend. You weren't more. You were just you. And everything you were seemed to shake up everything I was.

So for my sake and sanity, I decided that I couldn't keep trying to figure out where you fit into my life. So I stopped trying.